I think I most definitely need to find peace. I need to love my me-time and I really need to accept and be okay with it. I need to let go of all the negativities in my life and the people emanating them. Unfortunately, these people are my near and dear ones. So I just need to learn to let go. JUST LET GO. If only I could learn that magic trick, if only I could love being alone, all my issues will be solved. A habit dies hard. I am habituated to a presence. Any presence. But I am not used to staying alone at any time, any day and anywhere. Thanks to my mom but that’s just her protectiveness I cannot blame in anyway.
I have no clue as to what to do but I’ll go one step at a time. The first step being, avoid all the negative energies, coming from anywhere or from anyone but I’ve got to ditch all of ’em. Let’s just focus on this for the time being. I’ve got to close my ears, my eyes, my mouth, my mind and whole of my brain towards anything negative, anything that disrupts me or anything unsettling enough to cause even a slight stir from normal in my daily routine.
Secondly, am gonna always try my best to keep myself busy. An idle mind is a devil’s workshop.